Healthier Finances for the New Year

So this post I am going to talk about a different kind of health for this mommy. Instead of talking about losing weight, I'm going to talk about "gaining" some weight.  Healthier finances. I want to gain more weight in my finances meaning I want to cut out the unnecessary spending and focus on the saving. On January 1st, I started a spreadsheet to keep track of all the expenses that are outside of utilities, student loans, mortgage, etc that are constants (the ones that I have to pay or stuff gets shut off or sent to collections). So I am tracking all the eating out and date nights, groceries, hobbies and crafts items, medical bills/prescriptions, clothes, gas, and an other category. I've always looked for deals and ways to save but I have never logged exactly what I spent, where I spent it and what I spent it for. So even though I could go and look at my bank statement and kind of figure the same thing out, I made the spreadsheet so I could intentionally think about what I am buying and why and is it really necessary. So far so good. Granted we are only on day 6 of the new year, but I have had moments where I have said to myself, "No you don't need a candy bar." "No you don't need a pop." I've even said "no" to a playdate at McDonald's. So maybe in creating extra money weight, maybe I will be dropping some body weight because I am saying no to the extras!?

Time to Re-Program

So yesterday, I decided that my weight loss journey wasn't going to be completely based on calorie intake, calories burned, stressing, and feeling guilty if I've gone over those calories. On this new journey of weight loss I have had an epiphany of sorts. I realized that your brain gets programmed by your parents and family at a very young age and they continue to influence that program to be habit. There are multiple programs in one's mind all in different areas of life and there are some programs that are harder than others to re-program. One area I have found that I need to re-program is my mindset about food. I think until I have that re-programmed, I will not have any successful and long lasting weight loss. This revelation I have had may be just what I need to help re-program my mindset. I have noticed more and more that I eat out of habit, boredom, stress, and insecurity.

 I have discovered that out of habit that I tend to want to snack or eat dessert type foods like cake, ice cream, or cookies after lunch and dinner as well as have a snack in the afternoon. Growing up we did have ice cream, cake or cookies after every meal! So not healthy! But that's how my family rolled. Not only did I learn that from my parents, but my grandparents on both sides always had some sort of dessert after meals. Changing my mindset about having dessert on hand always and eating dessert after every meal has been somewhat changed. I don't always have desserts around or after every meal, but when there are some in the house, I definitely do. And if there isn't anything around, I crave something sweet. This particular area of changing the habit is still a work in progress but has made some progress nonetheless. Then growing up we always came home from school and had a snack before dinner while doing homework. So that has translated to an afternoon snack of some sort to this day.

Then I have found more and more that I eat out of boredom and have done that ever since I can remember. If I'm watching TV or a movie, I want to have something to munch on. Looking back it seems like there were a lot of nights where we had a small snack while watching TV before bed and I think that has stayed with me all these years.

Since having kids, I've come to the realization that I am a stress eater. When I'm having a rough day and put the kids down for quiet time, I go straight to the cupboard and eat something terrible and feel guilty as soon as I'm finished.

What I mean when I say I eat out of insecurity, I am referring to my father and brother taking whatever leftovers I may have had in the refrigerator and eating them. It never failed. I would put leftovers I had in the refrigerator and put my name on it and write, "DO NOT EAT!", and put it clear in the back of the fridge where you think people wouldn't see it since that is where you always find moldy stuff that you forgot about! But no matter what I did, my dad and brother always seemed to sniff it out and eat it.  Another thing I thought of was that when we were sitting to a meal, my family tended to clean the dishes out and eat everything and it seemed to be a competition of sorts of who got the last serving. So if you didn't get the last serving, you didn't get anymore. So guess what!? I got programmed into thinking or feeling like there would be no more food of that kind so I had to eat it while it was available. This is the biggest mindset re-program that I need to make. I am blessed with plenty of food always. I have no reason to not think there will be any food left for me to eat. I should not fear putting my leftovers in the refrigerator and worry about someone else eating them. And not only that but I should be giving and unselfish. I should let whoever wants it have it. There will always be more another time.

While writing this I have noted that I tend to be a closet eater in all these areas. No matter whether its a time when I eat out of habit, stressful eating, boredom eating, or insecurity, I will eat huge amounts because no one can see me. If people are around, I tend to eat more appropriately and don't over eat. I need to learn to not be greedy in my eating and eat to live, not live to eat. Food is delicious, food is wonderful, and food is needed. So this re-programming I will have to do is going to be tough. But with the support of great friends and supportive family, I know that I can re-program my mindset of how to eat and live and not feel guilty.

Epic Fail

I've been absent for a few months.....and by a few I mean like 6 months. The last 6 months haven't gone so great. I said in the beginning I would never see the weight on the scale that I had lost. Well, yet again, I am reminded to never say never. I have gained all of it back and then some. In the beginning I knew why I had gained some of the weight back. I mean, let's face it, summer came and we went on vacation for a couple weeks and then other trips and whatnot came up and I ate terribly. I will say I didn't go overboard but I wasn't exercising as much to compensate. But today, I have gained yet another 2 lbs and I have been working out as much as I can and even counting the calories. I'm not sure what the deal is but I was so upset by it that I almost cried. Then when talking to my friend this morning about it, I finally just realized, you know what! I need to just be happy with who I am and what I look like. I need to continue to exercise and enjoy it and just try to eat less and more healthfully. Then from there whatever happens, happens. I've decided that stressing over whether I'm losing or gaining isn't going to help me. My true friends love me the way I am, I have a husband who loves me no matter what, and I have 2 little blessings that love me no matter what. So from today forward, I am giving up on making a weight loss goal and stress over how many calories I've eaten and have I done enough exercise. I will eat when necessary. I will exercise to enjoy myself. I have found that I like running. Who knew! So now that I have a treadmill in my home, I will use that as often as I can and use that to de-stress and enjoy!

New Challenges!

Today marks the beginning of a new 10 week challenge! This challenge I have created just for myself. I'm not competing with a team or against anyone but myself. I noticed that if I had something to work towards I was achieving my goals. So my new goal is to do 200 hours of activity/exercise in the 10 weeks and lose 10 lbs or 5%. If I am able to meet these goals, I am rewarding myself with either a massage or a mani/pedi. 

So to start off my first day of my new 10 week challenge, I am off to Des Moines this afternoon with some zumba friends for the Glow Run 5K. No I will not be running this! Someday I may run a 5K but not today. Thank goodness I wasn't planning on running anways. Wednesday I slipped on the wet deck taking out the garbage and really hurt my behind and my left ankle/foot. The foot wasn't too bad yesterday....in fact it is almost healed. But yesterday I saw the chiropractor to help put me back from falling down 3 steps. Good thing my foot is in walking condition! And thank goodness I fell on my behind and hurt my foot instead of my head! Not something you want to happen when you're home alone with the kids! 

Well I am off! Des Moines Glow Run here I come!

Live Healthy Iowa 10 Week Challenge Complete

Before 

After

The challenge started January 28th and ended April 5th. I lost 4.55% of my body weight. I had 175 hours 28 minutes of exercise activity over the challenge period. The challenge was very motivating. I am really glad that I did it. Now to keep the challenge going personally. Gotta try and meet my wedding anniversary goal. 9 more pounds to go! I am thinking of trying a Piyo class at the gym in the next week or two when I can get a yoga mat bought. Another goal I am going to try and achieve is drinking the amount of water needed to help boost my weight loss. I read an article today that says you should be drinking half of your body weight in water. That is 94.5 ounces every day! I have only been drinking about 40 so I need to double my water intake. It seems like an awful lot of water but I'm sure my body needs it. Some days I don't feel like I am thirsty and then by the end of the day I find that I've only drank about 12-16 ounces that day! Yikes! So here's to water! My new friend!

Visitors

The past week has been a great week with family visiting from out of town. Both sets of parents visited. It has been awhile and was nice to have them around for a few days each. However, the week was filled with eating out at least once a day. So glad that doesn't happen very often. But on the positive side, I managed to not gain any weight while they were here! Even with eating some high calorie meals! Yay me! 

Then Saturday rolled around and I was so sick to my stomach. I hadn't ever had pain and nausea that way so Sunday morning I went to the doctor. He said I had a little flu bug but I'm not sure that was it. I never actually puked or ran a fever. So now that I am feeling much better, I am wondering if after not eating any fast food or hardly any restaurant food so often in a weeks time since December, I may have just been sick from all the unhealthiness I put in my body over the last week. So now seeing how great I feel when I don't eat out helps curb the desire and cravings of eating out. Which obviously seems like common sense but not having to cook can make eating out or take out enticing. 

So now the 10 week challenge is done. Over the challenge I have lost 4.55% which is about 9 lbs. Since January 1st I have lost 11 lbs. And since pre-Noah I have lost 21 lbs. Since post Noah I have lost 32 lbs. My goal is 130 so I have about 59 lbs to go! I'm pushing through and I have my eye on the prize! The prize of a fit and healthy body and a new wardrobe! Woohoo!

Easter

I hit another milestone. I am out of the 190's. Thank goodness! I hope I never see those numbers again! I'm finally doing something right! Still struggle sometimes but all the hard work is well worth it. 

We just finished Easter and its a joyous time remembering what Christ did for us on the cross so many years ago. But somehow with that comes all the candy and junk. And for us with family out of town, they tend to come and visit around Easter. With family  in town we are bound to eat out a few times. Boy does that kill one's calorie count for a day! So not only do you have the candy to say no to but you have to either eat what you want and push hard in the gym or do extra workouts or really number crunch or really know what to order to not ruin your day. I know that its okay to have a "cheat day" but I don't believe it should be "cheat days". So the in-laws came, I ate too much at lunches out. Now they have gone and my parents are arriving tomorrow. I'm trying to not let this be a "cheat week" but boy is it hard to not! 

Even though my calories these last few days have been blown, today is a new day and so is tomorrow. And my kids had a great weekend celebrating Christ's death, burial, and ressurection as well as spending time with Grandma Smith and Aunt Shoshannah.